it is now tuesday, monday was labor day, sunday was the lord's day (so of
course nothing was open), saturday was racking up sins to repent on lord's
day day, friday was blissful respite from work. actually i worked this
weekend, friday, saturday, sunday, monday which, theoretically means i
made some money. guess we'll see.
SMEAT! and Mess came up for the
long weekend, SMEAT! had to do some work for this guy in Fergus Falls,
which he intended to do monday, dunno' if he ever actually did. Was
pretty cool, friday we went out to TGI Friday's or "Fucking Friday's" if
you're anyone i hang out with, which on friday included SMEAT!, Mess,
darthmullet, and Beth. Beth isn't 21 but they never card us there
(because they like us) so she naturally came along to drink a couple of
Ultimates that happened to be bigger than she was (she's only like 25
lbs.). SMEAT! and darthmullet proceeded to get totally fucking trashed,
and therefore sick the following day (actually after SMEAT! ate he was
fine) i was the designated driver since i was playing host and had to work
at 0700, Mess went about getting drunk but wasn't boisterous about it, and
as usual we accrued a $40 tab from about $80 worth of liquor. like i
said: they fucking like us...
saturday sucked, darthmullet ditched us
at the last minute so then we just moped around for a bit, then ordered a
piece of shit from Papa John's, and had some NewCastle. So one can get a
large one topping pizza from Papa John's for $7.49, but a large Vegge'
pizza there costs $14.99, sure the one topping is a "college trash
special" but still.... something eludes me...
sunday SMEAT! Mess and i
went to see "Jay and Silent Bob Return," which was an alright movie
playing at one of the monopolist screens here in fargo. Movie was
alright, but not very impressive, stupidly funny, like most commedies that
are released, otherwise the humor would elude 99% of the population and
those hollywood fucks wouldn't be able to hire million dollar hookers.
Maybe we'll post a review or something on FTM, we'll see. After the movie
Jesse, his wife Holly, darthmullet, Beth, and the three of us hooked up
for supper, wine, and good company. goddamn blood-red steak is fucking
awesome! especially with blood-red wine, damn i should fucking cook for
just myself tonight. UAIOEand his wife Anne were thinking about coming
over too, but of course followed history and ditched us. so get this,
Nate, who used to be one of my very best friends no longer really talks to
us (we used to all be more or less best friends) and it turns out him and
Anne totaled their car, and he got fired and i never heard about it.
what the fuck is up with that? we live in the same fucking town, i go to
school about a block from his appartment, they know our fucking phone
number, i've known him for 15 years etc etc, what the fuck? he's too busy
masturbating to Diablo II or what? That and his ditching to hanging with
us ratio is about 38:1. Kind of pisses me off, especially with his stupid
fucking me out of my videocard for $20 antics. "Oh it's alright, tid242
works 80 hours/week so he can afford to put down $100 on a new vidcard, so
i can trade his to some guy for a $20 stick of RAM." it always seems like
he's too lazy, or preoccupied, or whatever to ever be proactive in doing
anything, especially when it has to do with sticking up for people that
stick up for him. We used to always feed them, invite them over, make
efforts to hang with them etc. we've generally recieved none of the same
in return. When the two of them got married as their wedding gift i wrote
off the $250 he owed me, in return? i recieved -1*(videocard) in return.
Maybe we're not friends anymore or something? i wouldn't know because i
doubt he'd let me in on that bit of knowledge, not that it would be any of
my buisness or anything...
in other news bewitched is in Rochester (Mn)
visiting her husband-to-be, who is enrolled in the med school there,
sounds like a smart guy right? maybe he is, doesn't act much like it
though. anyway i took the MCAT and all that shit (no results yet), but
does anyone else out there think doctors are a bunch of fucking babies?
maybe not when they get out into practice, then they're egophiles, but med
students are a bunch of conforming little suck-up whiners, and the most
important thing in the world is? art and culture?-no, the Tech.
Revolution!?-no, the Freeware movement?-no, Human rights legislation
around the world?-no, Feeding people in our most impovereshed nations?-no
silly it's looking good on a CV so your friends and family have something
to brag about. there's something inherently wrong with our system of
glorifying those who do the very least for humanity, yet somehow are made
out to be great advancers of our peoples by our sick and twisted society.
don't get me wrong MDs do a lot on a micro level, but they seem to
not get much done on a macro level. i guess in this sense they're better
than politicians and cops (who are on the bottom of the totem pole under
lawers, and shit, and above that feeling you get when someone tells you
he/she doesn't love you anymore) who are like doctors in that they're
supposed to be doing something, but instead masturbate under their
desks and build CVs all day, in the case of cops sodomizing minorities
with broomsticks and hitting on teenie boppers. but MDs come nowhere near
philosophers and humanitarianists in their contribution to our species.
MDs are devices for the now, the truely important are devices for the
hmmm... sure hope no one i know reads this.
if you were to rank the
all the idiots you know, who would be first? if i said George W Bush
would that be alright, i mean do i actually have to know him, or
would it be just to just judge him by his lack of vocabulary, obvious
corporate rapist tactics, and "christian character?" would the idea of
ranking idiots that you know be an oxymoron? i mean how many people
do you really get to know after you find they're total fucking morons?
this is why i don't know that my list would be very long, i mean, sure,
there are some really stupid people around, but like i take the time to
get to know any of them... i think i'd put good ol' G-double-yah Busch
light as number 1!
guess i don't have too much else to say, i think
i'm going to be single forever, and america sucks.
is it illegal for a non-profit organization to discriminate based upon
religious, racial or sexual grounds? could i try to join the KKK and then
sue them because they wouldn't let a Japanese guy in? darthmullet's mom
got excommunicated from the fucking catholic church because she got a
divorce, could she sue them?- i mean who'd want to, you'd have to see them
in court and talk to those catholic bastards and stuff...but still? i
thought discrimination was illegal. on the same grounds could i be sued
for expressing viewpoints degrading various religious factions on my
website. i mean it's MINE if someone doesn't like it they can fuck off,
it's totally easy. i mean restaurants cannot hang signs outside that say
"no niggers, chinks or spics allowed in our white restraunt" it's illegal.
what if i had banner adds and were making a profit, how would that be any
different than a restaurant that required customers to say "i hereby sell
all rights to my soul to satan?" i'm sure i know absolutely shit about
the law, but interesting nonetheless.
it's been a while, it always seems to be a while between entries, as
always nothing happens, yet everything happens. nothing to say, yet so
much to tell i couldn't possibly have the time, nor could you read it
i don't even remember the last time i updated this thing, today
is september 13, 2001. two days ago it was september 11, 2001, 45 hours ago
it was prox. september 11, 2001 08:30. i nor we do not yet know the
ramifications of the events of two days ago, nor will we until perhaps
5-10 years down the road. on september 11, 2001 at about 08:30 terrorists
hijacked four airplains and crashed 2 of them into the twin towers of the
world trade center located in southern manhatan (NYNY), one of them into
the pentagon, and the last outside of Pitsburg. as of right now i have
little comment on the events, too much speculation and public comment
already litters the news and media. i will say however that these attacks
are a picture of the future of warfare, warfare perhaps in a civilized
world. no longer will the united states view threats to national security
as rogue nations made of mortar and brick, the enemies of tomorrow are the
elitist few, that exist in shadow, and cyberspace and urban centers will
be their battlefields, nor will cookie-cutter warfare contine to exist.
certain power, or percieved power will be shifted from the goliaths to the
davids, only the small, agile, and inventive will survive. our
undeservingly elected president has announced that we, as a country (so
apparently me too) are viewing the terrorist attack as an act of war.
what specific entity we are declaring war on is still unknown, how war
will be waged against whatever entity we decide to pass the blame onto is
also unknown, whether a war can be fought against an elusive few, again,
is unknown. the feeling of retaliation is pushing misplaced follies,
exactly as any terrorist would wish. we, as a nation, are stupid and
fickle. things right now are in a state of being unresolved, i am not
exactly sure why we are making fundimental decisions on our global policy
right now. 15-day wait for buying a handgun and we are deciding shit 12
hours after the fact? something eludes me, and i don't think it's
when listening to the reports on the radio the other day i was
overcome with a great sadness for the events that have recently occured, i
am not an emotional person, and holistically, well, who knows....time
flows unrelenting, life goes on, but i felt much sympathy for those who
suddenly lost those they cared about. i still feel much sympathy for
those who do not yet have closure, like all the things i should have said
to my mother, but never did, and now she is no longer here. they holding
onto their fleeting abstract rays of hope wishing for the best, but
reality points in the opposite direction, then they, like i will wish they
had done things in the past differently, said things, been kinder,
gentler, realized what it was they had, but didn't seem to appreciate.
and realize that there is no retribution, retaliation is seemingly
pointless, frivilous, the past behind, the future ahead, and no amount of
blame or punishment can make those lost exist in both dimentions. nothing
can bring them back. nothing can change what happened.
that is all